He could also remember the soft, warm numbness that followed, and the blinding fear consuming his mind when he first woke back up.

As the memory begins to draw him back into the madness he shakes his head to regain focus and scans forward in the notebook to another entry:

I had no choice but to banish you from my mind… before I lost it completely.
Six months later and I ask myself - What have I done?

He found the notebook in the leg pocket of his combat fatigues shortly after waking up and clung to it as if it were a compass to guide him out of this hell.

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