The Idiot Part 1 Chapter 16 Page 22

and I always imagined just such a good, honest, foolish fellow as you, one who should come and say to me: ‘You are an innocent woman, Nastasia Philipovna, and I adore you.’ I dreamt of you often. I used to think so much down there that I nearly went mad; and then this fellow here would come down. He would stay a couple of months out of the twelve, and disgrace and insult and deprave me, and then go; so that I longed to drown myself in the pond a thousand times over; but I did not dare do it.

I hadn’t the heart, and now — well, are you ready, Rogojin?”

“Ready — keep your distance, all of you!”

“We’re all ready,” said several of his friends. “The troikas