The Idiot Part 2 Chapter 10 Page 26

“Ah, yes — you were going away just now, and I thought to myself: ‘I shall never see these people again — never again!

This is the last time I shall see the trees, too. I shall see nothing after this but the red brick wall of Meyer’s house opposite my window. Tell them about it — try to tell them,’ I thought. ‘Here is a beautiful young girl — you are a dead man; make them understand that. Tell them that a dead man may say anything — and Mrs. Grundy will not be angry — ha-ha! You are not laughing?” He looked anxiously around. “But you know I get so many queer ideas, lying there in bed. I have grown convinced that nature is full of mockery — you called me an atheist just now, but you know this nature...