Notes From The Underground by Part 2 Chapter 6 Page 19

I often think that. However bad it may be at home, anyway they are your father and mother, and not enemies, strangers. Once a year at least, they'll show their love of you. Anyway, you know you are at home. I grew up without a home; and perhaps that's why I've turned so ... unfeeling.”

I waited again. “Perhaps she doesn't understand,” I thought, “and, indeed, it is absurd--it's moralising.”

“If I were a father and had a daughter, I believe I should love my daughter more than my sons, really,” I began indirectly, as though talking of something else, to distract her attention. I must confess I blushed.

“Why so?” she asked.

Ah!

so she was listening!