The Blue Castle by Lucy Maud Montgomery Chapter 8 Page 21

And have I ever really loved anybody? Do I really love Mother? No, I don’t. That’s the truth, whether it is disgraceful or not. I don’t love her — I’ve never loved her. What’s worse, I don’t even like her. So I don’t know anything about any kind of love. My life has been empty — empty. Nothing is worse than emptiness. Nothing!” Valancy ejaculated the last “nothing” aloud passionately. Then she moaned and stopped thinking about anything for a while. One of her attacks of pain had come on.

When it was over something had happened to Valancy — perhaps the culmination of the process that had been going on in her mind ever since she had read Dr. Trent’s letter. It was three o’clock in the morning — the wisest and most accursed hour of