Gigolo by Edna Ferber Chapter 2 Page 56

He stood there in the dining room, quiet. Quiet. His body felt queerly remote and numb, but his mind was working frenziedly. Clearly, too, in spite of the frenzy. Death. That was the first thought. Death. It would be easy. But he didn’t want to die. Strange, but he didn’t want to die. He liked Life. The Park, the trees, the Club, the talk, the whole show� . Nettie was a good girl� . The old must make way for the young. They had the right to be born� . Maybe it was just another excuse. Almost four years married. Why not three years ago?� The right to live. The right to live� .

He turned, stealthily, stealthily, and went back into the kitchen, put on his rubbers, stole out into the darkening November afternoon.

In an hour he was back. He entered at the front door this time,